Just a 19 year old guy trying to hope for the best

I’m just hopeless aren’t I


You don’t know the struggle unless you know what this is..


You don’t know the struggle unless you know what this is..


i want to kiss you and take cute pictures with you and go on stupid dates but I also want tO DESTRYO YOU AT MAR IO KART

  • 1. selfie
  • 2. what would you name your future kids?
  • 3. do you miss anyone?
  • 4. what are you looking forward to?
  • 5. is there anyone who can always make you smile?
  • 6. is it hard for you to get over someone?
  • 7. what was your life like last year?
  • 8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed?
  • 9. who did you last see in person?
  • 10. are you good at hiding your feelings?
  • 11. are you listening to music right now?
  • 12. what is something you want right now?
  • 13. how do you feel right now?
  • 14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you?
  • 15. personality description
  • 16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn't?
  • 17. opinion on insecurities.
  • 18. do you miss how things were a year ago?
  • 19. have you ever been to New York?
  • 20. what is your favourite song at the moment?
  • 21. age and birthday?
  • 22. description of crush.
  • 23. fear(s)
  • 24. height
  • 25. role model
  • 26. idol(s)
  • 27. things i hate
  • 28. i'll love you if...
  • 29. favourite film(s)
  • 30. favourite tv show(s)
  • 31. 3 random facts
  • 32. are your friends mainly girls or guys?
  • 33. something you want to learn
  • 34. most embarrassing moment
  • 35. favourite subject
  • 36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill?
  • 37. favourite actor/actress
  • 38. favourite comedian(s)
  • 39. favourite sport(s)
  • 40. favourite memory
  • 41. relationship status
  • 42. favourite book(s)
  • 43. favourite song ever
  • 44. age you get mistaken for
  • 45. how you found out about your idol
  • 46. what my last text message says
  • 47. turn ons
  • 48. turn offs
  • 49. where i want to be right now
  • 50. favourite picture of your idol
  • 51. starsign
  • 52. something i'm talented at
  • 53. 5 things that make me happy
  • 54. something thats worrying me at the moment
  • 55. tumblr friends
  • 56. favourite food(s)
  • 57. favourite animal(s)
  • 58. description of my best friend
  • 59. why i joined tumblr
  • 60. ask me anything you want

One thing you should know, I never stopped caring. I’m not trying to come back out of the blue.


There's a movie on TV.

"In Pokémon FireRed and LeafGreen, the television has two references depending on which gender the player chose. If the player chose male, the TV says, "There’s a movie on TV. Four boys are walking on railroad tracks. …I’d better go, too." a reference to the film, Stand by Me. If the player chose female, the TV says, "There’s a movie on TV. A girl in pigtails is walking down a yellow brick road. …I’d better go, too.", a reference to the Wizard of Oz film."

— List of references to popular culture in Pokémon

It might be time to move on with something new in my life. The way I feel about this sport is starting to change.

So many thoughts…

I don’t get on here often but I just needed somewhere to write. Everything since leaving has been pretty good. Frustrating but good and I don’t regret being here because I’m happy. At least I think I am, I don’t really know anymore because I don’t wake up everyday with a fire burning inside me to do more. I just get through the day the best I can and make the best out of bad situations. People aggravate me daily because of how ignorant and petty they are. I won’t claim to be perfect or anything close but I try to keep my mouth shut to prevent upsetting others. More recently though I’ve been so excited to get to my phone text just because of whose there but the sad part is I don’t always get a response from the people I want to talk to most. Or the fact that I’m in the dark about other things. I’m so idiotic for holding onto something that isn’t mine anymore but I can’t help it. I’m still in your grasp when you’re not even holding me anymore. I don’t even see anyone the way I see you. I look and you and my world lights up. I’m crazy right? It’s okay I know it’s true. I can’t really do anything about it now because I’m so far away. I just want to be genuinely happy again and I’ve had that before and I’m so sure that if things changed I could have that again. I guess just like before I’m just gonna hold on and push through and see what happens from here.